I’m gonna go on a Rant now…
Alright so I always look at other people and I see how they’re life is and it get’s me really jealous sometimes. Which is extremely annoying. I need to lose weight, because I just feel so bad about myself all the time. This is why I’m really excited for school, because I’ll be moving around more then I did this summer. I’m joining a sport so I’m not sitting at home the whole year. I’m going to be more productive this year, do more things. I have so many goals for this year. Since it’s my last year, I wanna make the most of it It’s going to be my last first time of everything. I’m going to….
-Join a Sport -Still do model congress -Enjoy my last year -Get a Job
-Work Harder in school.
-Driver’s Ed.
-To not procrastinate. (bad, bad Habbit)
-Enjoy my last memories in highschool with friends.
-Make the Most of what I have left with the people I care about.
-Meet more people (Outside of Wantagh)
I know it’s not goodbye, but see you later.
It will be the last time, I’ll be in highschool. So it is Goodbye.
…There’s more…
I like Change I need Change.
I want to change my style up a little actually a lot.
I really hated my old self. I know I’ve changed because I feel like I have. Maybe I have to be more opened about myself, then maybe I’ll finally meet the one. I’m going to change up how I dress. I’m going to get a new haircut. I want to go to school a different person. I don’t want people to remember the old me, because that got me in so much trouble. I’m not really sure how to describe it. Let’s just say, I need to change. Maybe then I’ll feel better about myself around others. The other day made me realize that. I was more opened and I talked more. I was more outgoing, to people I haven’t really talked to the past four years. So hopefully that helps. My thoughts are all over the place. It’s rediculous. My life is a RollerCoaster. It needs to stop. I’ve been listening to a lot of music lately. It’s been helping me figure what I need to do. To get myself out of this shit hole I’m in. People may not like me, but I’m learning to deal with it. Not everyone can like you. You can try but it usually doesn’t work out. I’ll try. It’s just hard. Relationships, is a big part in someone’s life. I want to be in one, but I’m just so picky that I want to wait and find the right person. I can’t do that. He’ll eventually come along. He’s somewhere out there. I just haven’t found him yet. I’m going to be I am a Senior now. I should be able to experience different things. It’s almost the end. Not of life but of highschool. One of the most important years of you’re life. Make the most of it. Yes, that’s what I have to do. I’m going to school a changed person. People should forget how I was in the beginning I didn’t know who I wanted to be. I didn’t know how to act. Now I do. So people should learn to know the real me. How am I now.
